I have been avoiding this...
That's all there is to it. I suppose on some level, by not beginning this blog, I am therefor not leaving in three weeks. I am not traveling halfway around the world, not leaving all I know for a year, not doing something I have wanted for my entire life and yet am crippled to begin doing.
This blog is important. It gets me money. Wonderful, free money I don't have to pay back (refer to "free" 24 characters ago :D), in fact money for a trip I couldn't otherwise afford. I suppose the coup is that I am actually writing now, albeit less about my experienced as is dictated by the free money fairies and more about my crippling fear of actually going to Japan. Thank god for rationalization, or I would be dead in the water, no wind in sight (not that, to be a nitpicker, you can see the damn wind, but in the spirit of nice little pre-packaged literary cliches, it works).
Dreams are funny things. You desire so badly for them to come true, and when they do you have this moment (note; "moment" in the grand scheme of universal existence, so for these purposes, anywhere from an hour to two months) of sheer exhileration. Once that passes though, it's like slamming on the brakes; "whoa, wait a sec. I've got WHAT? I'm going WHERE?." Enter crippling fear and crushing, irrational worries. Or maybe it's just me :D
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Calm down! You're going to have a great time.
congrats on the schollie and good luck dude. gotta represent UofA. anyway,im going to Kansai university september 12th and im planning on making a blog too.
Fear...is energy you can use to knock this outta the box, bro'. I have entered many cultures over the years, and have always emerged with wonderful, wonderful new insights. You will be deepened and tranformed...dazed and confused...all of that and more. But you will emerge an "enlightened being." Trust me. Go with the flow. Breathe. This is the good stuff!
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